Hopeless

I am, yes sire.

the awful truth

it just keeps getting uglier.

amazing

how one day without you feels so empty.

feelings

I would post something now, but I just keep thinking you're gonna think it's too much drama.

1 Voce mentiu lindamente quando disse que eu nao te machucava; não faça mais isso. 2 Eu estou repetindo milhares de vezes os mesmos erros que eu ja cometi antes, os mesmos nos quais pensei estar melhorando \FAIL. Assim sendo, vendo que eu nao mudei nada, provavelmente vc estava certa em não aceitar o meu pedido mes passado. 3 Pare de botar ma sua cabeça que voce tem algum tipo de culpa quando voce sabe que os erros são meus, e admite. 4 Eu sinto muito por se assim, e não estou sendo ácida, eu sei que parece. 5 Lembra quando eu te falei logo no inicio que o meu maior medo era que o meu jeito e minhas ações acabassem destruindo a gente? Então, agora vc vê o que eu quis dizer?

past/present/future

I knew right from the start.

I tried to be the one.

This is what I've done to myself.

Go back to where I was.

bad to the bone

everytime something like this happens, I get more convinced that i'm only bad for you.

I love you

don't ever forget that.

The year one

Not really the way I planned it to be.

At all.

I dont know what phrase, not even if it's mine.
But it isnt you that's making me sad. So dont blame yourself.
Not for me, not for anyone else.

good ol' days

I wanna go back to my good ol' fantasy days.
At least then, I knew who to behave, where I belonged and what was my role to play.
I was a lost soul waiting for a home.
Now Im just a lost soul, with nothing to cling onto.
I wanna be twelve again.

#nowplaying

Rilo Kiley - Portions for foxes

Alex's feelings.

I dont know what to do with this and I dont know what you're doing with it either.
And its tearing me apart.

#nowplaying (in-head)

"everytime we say goodbye, I die a little
Everytime we say goodbye, I wonder why a little..."

sing for me, Ella.

Oh, this life of mine...

I'm awfully tired of it at times. Like now. Dont you just wish you could take vacation of yourself for a few days? It would be quite nice, indeed.
Or, dont you just wish you knew what to do with it instead? Dont you wish you knew all the answers, or at least enough to solve your most urgent and anonoying problems?
I do. I've got a handful of problems going on right now. Maybe I'm overreacting to them, but I think they're just as big as they seem for me - not for anyone else who looks from behind the glass. Sometimes it feels like I am the one behind it.
Thing is, I'm not good at solving problems. I'm not good at anything, really. I'm not cut out for anything as well - and apparently anybody too.
You know, T've learned that I'm a good person, as long as I stay in a distance. Once I get too close, th I'm things start to go bad. I'm learning that I've been trying, for years, to change who I am, and it was all in vain.
So, I'm cutting the selfish, destructive, maniac-depressive crap and going straight to the point: my life's inertia is here for a reason and I can't get rid of it, no matter how hard I try.
So, me, let's stop with the useless attempts and start living the way you're supposed to be.
You're by yourself, mate. And ain't nothing you can do 'bout it.
Try to change it and someone will get hurt; so, save it for yourself. Dont get to close; only enough to be the friend they need you to be. Follow the script. Cover your roles. And just get by. Be the same cold old you, you can't change that - and now, there's no point.
Just be you - and who you're supposed to be.
What about who you want to be?
Well, that doesnt really matter, does it?
It ain't gonna save you, girl.
It'll just hunt you down. And it can run faster than you.

#nowplaying

Teagan and Sara - Dark come soon + Back in your head

#nowplaying

The O.C Soundtrack

#nowplaying

KT Tunstall - Through the dark