I won't

You know, not kissing me, getting a boyfriend, staying away, whatever you do, It's not gonna make me go away. I dont want to. You may think that you're the only thing keeping me here, and you're probably right, but for the wrong reasons. If you werent here, I'd probably leave, yes, for my family's sake, not mine. Being home or wherelse wouldn't make me happier than I am now, even if I never met you, much less now that I have. I'd just be the same old me, depressed anywhere I'd go, here, home, wherever. But now that I know you, going home would just be more painful. Maybe it would be best, for you and for me, but I'm not gonna find out. I ain't leaving. I just cant be away from you now, it hurts to much, it kills me. It gets me sick. And if you think it would make me happier, well, think again, 'cos it would not. I ain't leaving you, no matter what you do. Maybe, if you told me you wanted me to go and you really meant it, if you said it for your good, not mine. But right now, you're what I wanna be close to. Right now, I just cant leave you. Wouldnt work for me. No matter what you do, right now, you're home to me.

I'll go when I have to, when the time is right. Only if I can't stay and you can't come with me.

past

I have to stop living in it.

Dull gold heart

Another 7th has passed...

Fortunatelly, much better than the latest.

Thank you, for the amazing day.

today

I wanted to do something nice \fail. Guess I have to learn I'm not a big part of your life anymore.